So....WOW it's been a while since I've posted but to be honest with you the thought of looking at a computer screen the past few days has made me feel sick. Interesting!
Well, we had our last ultrasound with the IVF doctor yesterday and all is going well. The babies are growing and we could see little hands and feet. Sort of weird but very exciting. I still don't think it's hit me that there are 2 people growing inside me. I don't think it will really hit until I feel them move or something.
I have been having a ton of morning sickness.....let me re-phrase that....morning, noon AND night sickness. It doesn't ever seem to go away. I don't know if it's more than normal because there are 2 babies in there but all I know is that it's awful. So far I'm not enjoying it so much but just remind myself everyday how lucky I am to be so blessed with 2 children at the same time. Although I have broke down to Brandon a couple of times about my fears of taking care of 2 infants as a first time mom. I know he will be home for a while but I am dreading that first day he goes off to work and I'm home alone with them. Anyone want to move in to help?! We have a finished basement! :-) Anyway, I know my instincts will kick in but for now I worry. I wish I had a job to keep my mind off of it a bit but the thought of working with the way I feel scares me even more. I would hate to be working somewhere and have to run to the bathroom all the time. Not a good impression!
Today my friend down the street came over with her 1 year old. He is just starting to walk and wants to walk everywhere! I started thinking about when my babies start to walk. What if they wander off to different places? THEN WHAT!?!?! OMG that scares me to death. Which one do you go after first. Is it child abuse to put them in a pen? lol Just kidding. I feel like I want to wrap my house in bubble wrap when that time comes. Sometimes I forget to feed my dogs until like an hour after their dinner time and think, "OMG, what if I forget to feed my kid....OR the dogs because I'm so focused on the kids?" You can probably tell that I am scared to death and really want to move in every mom I know into my house until the kids get to school age. This may be a little dramatic but for those of you who know me well this shouldn't come at a surprise. My normal personality + double hormones = DRAMA!!
My in-laws are coming in town this weekend and I am so excited for that. My MIL can take me out to do some girlie stuff, which I need so bad, and the boys can do whatever. This weekend is also my birthday but I have noticed that this year I keep forgetting about it. My mind is definitely on the belly and not on myself. Weird how that happens. I just hope that I feel well enough to really enjoy the time that they are here and I'm not laid up in bed or something. Hopefully them being here will be just the distraction I need.....although I'm sure my MIL will want to do some baby shopping. :-)
The last thing I want to mention are the cravings. I haven't had any weird ones yet but I have had the overwhelming urge to eat lots of Wendy's fries and for some random reason I decided to have spaghettio's for dinner tonight. Probably haven't eaten them since I was a teenager. They tasted so good!
Well, my evening meds are kicking in and I'm getting sleepy. I will try to post more often when I feel up to it. Thank you all for wanting to keep up with our baby progress and as always you can see our most recent ultrasound pics on facebook. I can also email them to you if you'd like. Just let me know!
Love you all! Goodnight
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i remember sitting at that baby shower with you, and you said you would love to have twins. I said i would dread it. The anxiety is normal and will go away. I know you are really excited. Once the anxiety passes and you can't touch your toes, it'll be all good. :)
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